There’s No Need to Look for Love, We ARE Love
I begin each day with some reading, meditation, and a thought for the day. Usually it’s something that I may need to remember about myself, heal, or learn more about.
One topic that has been popping up almost daily for the past year is that we ARE all Love.
Most of my life consisted of constant searching for someone to love me. I longed for another person to shower me with affection and give me their heart, their adoration, their love. I wanted them to give me what I couldn’t (and didn’t know how to) give myself.
And so, desperately searching for love and acceptance. I entered relationships and friendships with that sole underlying purpose.
However, as you can probably guess, they were co-dependent, toxic and unhealthy situations that further fueled my need and hunger for some sense of love. Because, obviously, they were entered from a place of lack and need, not a mutual understanding of our true selves and ultimate truth.
And therein lay the problem. No person could give me what I already am.
I AM. Two tiny words, yet I had no idea the tremendous power they hold. Nor did I realize at the time (or remember) my true nature.
Numerous broken hearts later, I found myself caught up in a down-spiral of despair, loss of self, grief and declining health. I experienced several “dark nights of the soul.” However, years into this darkness, I started seeing a light at the end of the tunnel.
People showed up who walked with me for a short time on my healing journey. Books would appear that led me onto an inner exploration far beyond where any novel could take me.
Healers appeared, and they were instrumental in assisting me on my path to emotional and physical healing. (This is why I am now a reiki practitioner.)
Some souls that emerged were also on their own journey of re-discovery of self and shared their insights of self awareness and hope for brighter days.
Spiritual leaders began to emerge, and I gradually embraced my hunger to evolve and embrace new truths, especially those about spirituality and love.
I discovered a treasure that was more valuable than gold.
That treasure was my truth. It was the discovery that I AM love. I AM life essence. I AM life source living through and as me.
I learned to surrender. I relaxed into the flow with the knowledge that I don’t need to search for love. I AM Love. I am that being that pulses with a healing light that can never be dimmed.
I no longer seek out an emotion called Love; I understand that it is me. I get to embody Love itself, and in doing so, I give myself what others cannot.
The best way we can love ourselves and others is to BE. To embrace our truths. And when it comes to relationships, the best gift we can give our partners is our whole, self, vulnerability and all. Yes, we can participate in actions that express our affection, but ultimately, we don’t GIVE love. We give ourselves AS love.
Love is our essence, our lifeblood. We don’t need to set out on a quest to search out and grasp that seemingly hard-to-reach emotion.
It’s all right here. Now. As you. As me.